Red DirtRed DirtRed Dirt by swansisters
I eat only because my body demands it.
In the South pregnant mothers eat red dirt
because it gives them what they crave. Their bellies are full moons,
their eyes constellations of what their baby will be.
Forget tossed stones or chicken entrails,
the lines of a palm already scarred
by machinery bits, a barbed wire chicken fence.
I already know what my future will be.
I was given paradise but it did not want me.
They told me if you are not strong enough this paradise will scar you
and it has. I was meant to be pregnant at the age of 16
and believe this child will be different from me.
But I escaped, relentless, demanding. "Do not give into it."
But paradise rejected me.
I am now too slovenly, scared and desperate.
I want to bite myself, taste red blood,
red clay until it consumes me. I belong to it.
I want the red clay until it exhausts me and whatever I may give birth to.
My scars like constellations have told me we are not worthy.
Current Residence: Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry|
Favourite genre of music: EVERYTHING! but disney.
Favourite style of art: digital
Operating System: PC
MP3 player of choice: iPod
Skin of choice: Vulcan.
Personal Quote: When life gives you lemons, you say, screw this. I hate citrus.